Earlier this week I gave myself the goal of losing 1.3 kilos and as it is 2 days to weigh-in and my weight is still the same, it is pretty safe to say that I will be lucky to lose 300 grams. I thought I had my head back where it needed to be, but unfortunately, I was wrong. My head is still here......
rather than where I would like it to be..........
I want to get back to enjoying exercise. I was at the point where I looked forward to getting up at 5 am to go swimming, it was actually becoming routine, a normal part of my daily life and then I let someone ruin it for me. I hate myself at the moment.
I hate myself because I let someone make me feel bad about myself. I let someone make me feel utterly useless and worthless. I let someone make me doubt myself, my abilities and what I am actually capable of. I let them, I did it. By letting someone else make me judge and doubt my worth, I have let myself down.
The good news though, is that I am aware of it (this time), I am understanding how and why I am feeling the way I am. The best news though, is that I know it's not true. I know now that I am worth feeling good about myself and that my life is worth more than a Tim Tam or Crunchie mmmmmm Crunchie. I know what I have to do to change myself and my life. This time last year I would have just given up on everything and gone back to over 115 kilos, but NOT this time.
This time I know how to deal with and beat these negative feelings I am having. I have been a little slow getting back into the swing of things, but I have devised a new exercise routine which has gotten me a little excited to start again. I have an early morning swim planned tomorrow, followed by the dreaded 30 Day Shred with Jill (my BFF). I have done level 1 before, so I know I can do it.
Tomorrow is my day!
How do you get yourself out of a fitness rut.......
- Do you sit and wallow for a few months or more?
- Do you eat whatever your heart desires?
- Do you try and kick yourself in the butt and get moving again as soon as possible?